1. Happy Canada Day…and coffee table decisions.
  2. ON DECIDING TO START A BUSINESS
  3. Friday’s Four (on Saturday).
  4. Blue Black, Pink, Brass & Wood.
  5. In other exciting news, I bought a bed frame.
  6. Lady Abroad / Meet Oneika of Oneika The Traveller
  7. Perfectly lovely.
  8. The design Gods are on my side.
  9. Kilkenny, Ireland | Mount Juliet.
  10. A few things I’m coveting.
  11. It was charming.
  12. Fear, the voice, and getting personal.
  13. Happy Me Day
  14. Birthday Wish List
  15. A testament to how I’ve grown?
  16. Friday’s Four
  17. The Fifth One.
  18. A new plant.
  19. Functional and well designed | The little things.
  20. Just 1 Hour.
  21. Friday’s Four
  22. Framed feathers. A simple DIY project.
  23. CURRENTLY COVETING: FALL WARDROBE UPDATE
  24. EVERYDAY MAKEUP LOOK
  25. CURRENTLY COVETING
  26. ON DRINKING WINE
  27. 7 TIPS FOR FINDING (GOOD) STUFF ON CRAIGSLIST
  28. WHAT IS YOUR DREAM JOB?
  29. Randomness. And a few questions for you.
  30. Being sick, listening to your body, and a lesson from Howard.
  31. Flashback: Aswan & Luxor
  32. For Rinah.
  33. Frequent Flyer : Brenna of This Battered Suitcase
  34. Juice.
  35. Whoa. It’s Been How Long?
  36. New Routines.
  37. Full Steam Ahead
  38. Before the sky goes dark.
  39. A day at a castle.
  40. The Weekend. 85 Percent.
  41. All things enamel.
  42. It’s Just Fabric Now…
  43. Frequent Flyer: Kylie of Spencer and Kylie
  44. All That Glitters
  45. Frequent Flyer : Nicole Gibbons of SoHaute
  46. Craving Indian Food.
  47. Just run.
  48. 2018 Travel Plans.
  49. The best damn apple pie.
  50. READ THIS: The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks.
  51. Six random things I have my eyes on.
  52. Galway, Ireland | A day and a half in Galway.
  53. Inspired by candles.
  54. Cork, Ireland | Two days and a lot of walking.
  55. Souvenir At Home: With Gemma of Line x Shape x Colour
  56. The perfect scarf for winter.

Every now and then I get that feeling. That small inner voice begins to speak up until it gets louder and louder asking me, pushing me to answer the question: “are you doing what you want to be doing? are you doing what makes you happy? are you creating and living the life you want to live?”

I hate that voice. Just when I think I’d be happy to just go along and take the “easy” route, do what most people seem to be doing (at least according to facebook, I swear most days I hate that fu%$*ng site and should just delete my account already but that’s another story) that voice, that little freaking voice starts up…

I swear I’m not losing my marbles people.

Needless-to-say, that voice, much as I despise it because it makes me question everything and take a good hard look at myself and what I’m doing (which honestly is never very much fun) – is a good thing? I mean, it’s a good thing if you listen to it, confront it, and do something about it. Not such a good thing if you just let it bother you and don’t confront it and do anything…I also read this interview with Harper Poe recently, the lady behind the international textile line Proud Mary, and found it inspiring. It’s kind of what started up that voice again. I admire what she’s doing and has done and love how she answered the question about being in transition. I feel like that. Like I’m in a period of transition too. I’m not exactly the same person I was before I lived in India;┬áliving there I constantly felt inspired, motivated, curious, challenged, happy, and alive. And since returning home in January I am, in a way, starting over too. New job. New apartment. Fresh start. I too get to ask myself “who do I want to be in this new chapter of my story?” And I agree with her. It’s exciting and yet it’s scary. And because it’s scary, I take the easy (for me) route out.

What would I do if I wasn’t afraid? Of failure. Of hearing “no.” Of hearing “that’s silly, that’s impossible…” Where would I live? What would my life look like? What would I do if the reality of it takes money, a lot of time, and a lot of hard work didn’t stop me dead in my tracks…

What would YOU do?

+In the survey I created and asked you to participate in, which many of you did, one thing that a majority of you said was that you wanted to read more personal posts. This is pretty personal I think.

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ANONYMOUS April 5, 2018 at 00:03

I think you need a harsh reality check. You need to find something that inspires you, shocks you, moves you. Do something you never thought in a million years you do. It seems like you seem to consumed with apartment hunting, decorating, and your dog because you don’t want to listen to that voice in you head telling you to live a little more. Live a little, take a walk on the dangerous side, because your not gonna live forever are you?

GIA April 5, 2018 at 17:11

I would move back to Oregon.. or maybe try Seattle. Splurge on an apartment somewhere downtown. Go to museums and paint more. As for work? Maybe something in the arts, like being an art teacher or teaching art therapy. In this economy though… I just don’t know.

JAY April 6, 2018 at 04:47

Ugh – I have that same voice and it asks some really tough questions. It’s always so easy to say ‘do what you love, what are you waiting for?’ but the realities and fear often speak much louder.

KAYLEE HINRICHS April 6, 2018 at 16:19

Ah, I love this. Wow. It’s like you took the words right out of my mouth. These thoughts have been on my mind for weeks now.

SELVIN April 6, 2018 at 17:16

Lol at anonymous …..not only are u blind but you have no life too.next time read the entire blog before u say people need to live a little,shes lived alot trust me

KARA April 7, 2018 at 02:33

Wow. Congrats on your first anonymous troll. ­čÖé You’re in the blogging big time now, girl!

KAY April 7, 2018 at 17:11

so so true!

JASON HUDSON April 9, 2018 at 03:48

Wow. Shut it, Anonymous. Clearly you haven’t been paying attention to her blog, otherwise you’d know she’s been living away from home for the last year. In India.

Yuck. Get outta here.

RENEE April 10, 2018 at 14:07

I’ve been wondering about this a fair amount too. I never figured out ‘what i want to be when i grow up’. I feel like so many people have goals and aspirations and I just can’t seem to lay my finger on one. I want to do something creative, something important, something that matters to me and to someone else, something fulfilling, something that gives me joy and brings me adventures. But I just haven’t found it yet. Glad to hear you’re still searching too. Solidarity Sister!

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